**I’m still learning

**I’m still learning. ⠀

I feel as though this disclaimer should be written across my forehead. If you judged me based on where I was 20 years ago, 10 years ago, I year ago, or even 1 day ago, you might find that I’ve changed. But isn’t that what we’re supposed to do? Change. ⠀

This is why, though exhausting at times, I speak grace (as much as I can muster) to those unaware of the bigger picture at play. We are all on quite the adventurous learning journey, right? Some of us learned the hard way, through pain. And a few of us learned by watching others fall. ⠀

But grace. Grace is so needed in this hour. The incessant chanting back and forth energizes our real enemy. He laughs, while we direct negative energy towards people, forgetting that we are in a war against spiritual forces of evil (Ephesians 6). ⠀

So, today… I choose grace on this journey. Because I’m still learning, too. And reminding myself that this war is ironically not of flesh and blood (Ephesians 6:12). ⠀

Life isn’t easy. I simply hope to encourage someone as they wake… not shame them in all of the things they should have already known. We all started somewhere. My heart truly goes out to those who blindly trusted and, without TRUE informed consent, already took the “juice which shall remain nameless for purposes of not getting deleted again.”⠀

There is grace.

i know {who} holds tomorrow

I love this community! But I realized I had to set boundaries for myself [by turning off Instagram replies in stories] when my inbox became FLOODED with fear. From Christians.

I get it. These headlines are not easy to navigate. But, as Christ-followers, our response should look different —> Even if we have to shake ourselves as the psalmist did when he told. his. soul. to hope in God. (Psalm 43:5)

We have a HOPE that’s bigger than… (insert any headline here — today, it’s drama on our nation’s capitol). No matter the circumstance, the message remains the same.

Salvation is found in Christ.
Stay away from vacksheens.
Stop listening to the lies of the enemy.

Satan’s days are numbered. And he ain’t happy about it.
But we can certainly rejoice! The joy of the Lord is our strength. Amen!

“To reveal the kingdom coming
And to reconcile the lost
To redeem the whole creation
You did not despise the cross

For even in Your suffering
You saw to the other side
Knowing this was our salvation
Jesus for our sake You died

And the morning that You rose
All of heaven held its breath
Till that stone was moved for good
For the Lamb had conquered death

And the dead rose from their tombs
And the angels stood in awe
For the souls of all who’d come
To the Father are restored

And the Church of Christ was born
Then the Spirit lit the flame
Now this gospel truth of old
Shall not kneel shall not faint

By His blood and in His Name
In His freedom I am free
For the love of Jesus Christ
Who has resurrected me”

p.s. I’m not a huge fan of the author of the song, but that doesn’t change the truth in the message. Also… You CAN still message me! 😉

new {normal}

Sometimes I miss the me I used to be, clueless of a bigger agenda. Is it possible to grieve ignorant bliss?
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There’s no time for that now. I’ve had enough of the lies and sometimes, instead of tears, righteous anger takes the wheel. I find myself apologizing to my 18 yr old because the many concerns build up and overflow into my conversations. I tell her… “I’m sorry. This is your new mom” – my ₦Ɇ₩ ₦ØⱤ₥₳Ⱡ, a mom who cannot remain silent and bow down to injustice.

Read my friend @toxinfree.tiffany ‘s post — She encapsulates how I feel in this hour.
Thankfully, my daughter gets it. She’s done with the lack of common sense, critical thinking skills, and kindness, as well. [Side note: The Lord needs to provide her with a woke, God-lovin’ man. Amen.]

The benefit of agenda awareness is the knowledge of our desperate need for a Savior. Not Trump, but Christ and His presence. I thank God for His goodness and for the HOPE we have in HIM with even MORE earnest. Because that’s all we have. Hope… in Him.
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And if Christ is our defender, we never have to defend our choice to speak out to anyone. At the end of this life, we stand before an audience of One.


Come Jesus Come

Come Jesus Come

I have never been so homesick for a place I’ve never been. Jesus is the only answer.
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Then I heard a loud voice from the throne: Look, God’s dwelling is with humanity, and He will live with them. They will be His peoples, and God himself will be with them and will be their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. Death will be no more; grief, crying, and pain will be no more, because the previous things have passed away. Then the one seated on the throne said, “Look, I am making everything new.” He also said, “Write, because these words are faithful and true.” Revelation‬ ‭21:3-5‬
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Come, Jesus, Come. Until you do, we occupy… pointing others to you.
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Video: Stephen McWhirter

Christ {first}

Hi!  With each post, I often think… this is the post or story in which I lose everybody.  So thank you for sticking around.
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I’m here to warn ANYone who has “ears to hear” that vaccines are a tool in the devil’s tool belt (they ARE – as well as: 5 g, fluoride, etc). There IS an agenda, on all sides. BUT, I’m living one degree off if I share the darkness and miss sharing the gospel of salvation and hope in Christ. I’m about that message, too!  He is THE truth (John 14:6). Unless we’ve accepted Him, we lose everything, our very souls, at the end of this crazy little thing called life.



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We need discernment, now more than ever, within the body of Christ. Our enemy is sneaky, a roaring lion (1 Peter 5:8). I cry out, “Lord, heal our land!” He replies, “if my people, who are called by my name, will HUMBLE themselves and PRAY and SEEK my face and TURN from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.” 2 Chronicles 7:14
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Sharing a peep in my message box.

Yes, it gets crazy in there sometimes. People can be people. I’m not sharing for pity, simply a display of our collective need to fall on our knees before the ONLY Savior in this big picture. Opinions are all over the place. Be wise as serpents, innocent as doves (Matt. 10:16). Stay alert, and of sober mind, my friends. Be encouraged! The Lion of the tribe of Judah HAS conquered (Revelations 5). Christ first. ALL else, second. Praying…

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video clip: @ officialjohnnybargo
Disclaimer: posting a clip of one person does not mean you agree/disagree with everything they post.

guard your heart

Anyone know what the man behind the curtain has up his sleeve next? Who feels like we’re living in The Truman Show? Hunger Games? Groundhog Day? 1984?
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There are several topics swirling in my mind to post, information competing for first place. It can be dizzying some days. And I will need a little break soon. But this keeps coming to the forefront…
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The object of waging a war is always to be in a better position in which to wage another war.
– George Orwell, 1984
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Thankfully, I know the ONE who holds yesterday, today, and forEVER. It may look grim. But God… Temporary suffering can NOT compare to the coming eternal glory God has planned.
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He restores
He establishes
He strengthens
He supports
1 Peter 5:10
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My friends… “Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the FULL armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.  Stand FIRM then, with the belt of TRUTH buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of RIGHTEOUSNESS in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of PEACE. In addition to all this, take up the shield of FAITH, with which you can extinguish ALL the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of SALVATION and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.” Eph. 6:11-17
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This world is not my home. I’m just passing through…

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recommended songs:
Through It All
Such An Awesome God
You Keep On Getting Better
My Heart Your Home 

obey {God} rather than men

Excerpts from: Christ, not Caesar, Is Head of the Church

Christ is Lord of all. He is the one true head of the church (Ephesians 1:22; 5:23; Colossians 1:18). He is also King of kings—sovereign over every earthly authority (1 Timothy 6:15; Revelation 17:14; 19:16). As His people, we are subject to His will and commands as revealed in Scripture. We cannot and will not acquiesce to a government-imposed moratorium on… corporate gatherings. 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐛𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐋𝐨𝐫𝐝’𝐬 𝐜𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐬.
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We 𝙙𝙤 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙚’𝙨 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙢𝙞𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣 to serve and worship our Lord as He has commanded. The church is Christ’s precious bride (2 Corinthians 11:2; Ephesians 5:23–27). She belongs to HIM alone. She exists by His will and serves under His authority. He will tolerate no assault on her purity and no infringement of His headship over her. All of that was established when Jesus said, “𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘶𝘪𝘭𝘥 𝘔𝘺 𝘤𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘤𝘩; 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘏𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘱𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘵” (Matthew 16:18)…
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The honor that we rightly owe our earthly governors and magistrates (Romans 13:7) does not include compliance when such officials attempt to subvert sound doctrine, corrupt biblical morality, exercise ecclesiastical authority, or supplant Christ as head of the church in any other way.
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When officials prohibit singing in worship services, they attempt to impose a restriction that in principle makes it impossible for the people of God to obey the commands of Ephesians 5:19 and Colossians 3:16. When officials mandate distancing, they attempt to impose a restriction that in principle makes it impossible to experience the 𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚞𝚗𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚜 that is commanded in Romans 16:16, 1 Corinthians 16:20, 2 Corinthians 13:12, and 1 Thessalonians 5:26. In all those spheres, we must 𝐬𝐮𝐛𝐦𝐢𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐋𝐨𝐫𝐝…
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We cannot accept and 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐛𝐨𝐰 to the intrusive restrictions government officials now want to impose…

We offer this response without rancor, and not out of hearts that are combative or rebellious (1 Timothy 2:1–8; 1 Peter 2:13–17), but with 𝐚 𝐬𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐞 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐋𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐉𝐞𝐬𝐮𝐬…
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“Whether it is right in the sight of God to give heed to you rather than to God, you be the judge” (Acts 4:19). And our unhesitating reply to that question is the same as the apostles’: “𝐖𝐞 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐲 𝐆𝐨𝐝 𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐦𝐞𝐧” (Acts 5:29).
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John MacArthur
{I may not agree with everything he says, but I appreciate his stance in this season.}
Grace Community Church
Sun Valley, CA

Push Away

There is a time to push away from a conversation when it’s clear the seed planted will not take root.
We lost close friends over this vax topic. Their unexpected response upon learning of our views was not loving. I am not confrontational, so my response left me in quiet tears as they fired accusations. They were not open to anything we had to say.

Why can’t people be mad at the lies and not the people shining a light on the deception? Cognitive dissonance is rough on the receiving end. Sigh…
Afterwards, I wanted to call and defend myself, but I was reminded that it’s best to hush in the hurt. Scripture repeats “those who have ears to hear, listen...” Everyone is NOT ready.
The Lord kept bringing me back… “For the whole law is fulfilled in one statement: Love your neighbor as yourself. But 𝙞𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙗𝙞𝙩𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙙𝙚𝙫𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧, 𝙬𝙖𝙩𝙘𝙝 𝙤𝙪𝙩, 𝙤𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙗𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙨𝙪𝙢𝙚𝙙 𝙗𝙮 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧. I say, then, walk by the Spirit and you will certainly not carry out the desire of the flesh. For the flesh desires what is against the Spirit, and the Spirit desires what is against the flesh; these are opposed to each other, so that you 𝙙𝙤𝙣’𝙩 𝙙𝙤 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩.” Galatians‬ ‭5:14-17‬
HE is my defender. My job is to plant the seed… and let Him do the rest.
Out of that experience, this account was born. Hearing our pro-life, Christian friends say, “I don’t care! They were going to be aborted anyway!” when my husband tried to let them know there were aborted fetal cells in vaccines [ they were NOT going to be aborted anyway]. This experience revealed just how deep the deception runs within the body of Christ. In some ways, that experience prepared me for the hate messages I now get online: baby killer, racist, white Bible thumper, uneducated…
Content on this account, which contradicts a lifelong belief, can stir emotion before a word is ever exchanged. Before engaging with someone, I ask myself if I’m spiritually ready to respond. I don’t always get it right, but I’m learning to push away from toxic conversations. Plant the seed and let God do the rest… 𝙤𝙧 𝙗𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙨𝙪𝙢𝙚𝙙 𝙗𝙮 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧.


Song recommendation:  Defender, Rita Springer

the {silent} work

Most of the time nobody is gonna see the work you do.
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Nobody is gonna see you read that book, say that prayer, or send those texts to check on your friends. Nobody is gonna see the money you donate, the hard conversations you dig into, or the research you do.
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Nobody is gonna see you teach your kids, stop hateful dialogue, or quietly build bridges. Nobody is gonna see you check your own heart and clean out the junk BUT DO IT ANYWAY.
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People don’t always need to see you plant the seed, they just need to see the good fruit it produces.
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Just a little encouragement to do the silent work. It’s usually the best work.
-Amy Weatherly
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This rings true in sharing the gospel and with advocacy. Every seed planted will not take root… some people are just NOT ready to hear.

He who has ears to hear, let him hear!” Mark 4:9

But we are tilling the ground, cultivating the next step in seed planting – possibly making it a tad easier for the next seed planter.
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And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony. Colossians 3:14

God sees. He hears. He bottles every tear.

I pray He finds me faithful…